Oh, Yah... I knew that.

This morning I'm praying for three things in our family's lives:
a) David's job situation
b) a house
c) children
...and in praying, I have to admit that I know exactly what I want, but I don't know what God wants.  And from where I see it, it all looks hopeless.  But, the real battle is not fighting to get these things.  The real battle is being content and joyful if we don't.  So, I'm praying through this and then I think of David.  Not my David, but the one who fought Goliath.  I'm teaching those chapters this week, and so I've been talking a lot about it... but not really internalizing God's provision, God's victory.  The whole point of that story is summed up by David in 1 Samuel 17:46 who says that the victory is to show everyone that There Is A God in Israel.

Perhaps the contentment, perhaps His gift of peace, perhaps the not-worrying-about-being-worried is the battle God's going to win.  And in that, I will know - our family will know - everyone will know... that there is a God of our lives.

Alzheimer's

I attended a little video seminar at work presented by a woman whose husband had lived and died through Alzheimers.  It made me remember a quote from last semester's counseling class... something about how we can't avoid the suffering, but we want to suffer well.  And this woman walked beside her husband suffering well.
Here's what I learned from her:

Is what I'm saying or doing done in celebration or toleration of the people around me?

How would I feel if someone had just said what I said to me?


Are my words medicine?


Is this a battle that really matters?


After a setback or failure, why not do a little dance and start all over?


Are my decisions based on what is easiest for me or what honors my husband the most?

Although these questions are good to store up if my David does ever get Alzheimer's, they sure are applicable for today in all my relationships.

Today, Tomorrow & Beyond

I'm sitting still before God this morning. LEARNING what feels like a hard lesson. I'm sitting to give myself time to process yet another thing that God is saying not right now. And it's hard. But He is teaching me. It was kind of like a dance. I got the news, I sang with a heavy heart, then I cried, then I started to get angry, I went to the Word and felt peace but then I felt kinda numb. How complicated can I be! But now I'm opening up here and recalling everything God is and everything I am just not. And it's ok. Slowly my mind is opening up to the possibilities of what God may have in store. AND I am remembering His truths and sacrifice. Even without Hai holding my hand thru it or burdening him while he is at work :) What I'm learning is I need to let go of this attention and "what about what I want" idol but I don't really know how. I pray that he would start to do a work in me. Today I am recalling a lot and feeling the weight of my sin in seeking attention for the many things that I FELT were just unfair and of all the unmet expectations.. So I'm just sitting with that this morning. Knowing that I need to go to God in all things and seeking Him. Please join me in prayer, so that God would help me see what I need to see. For He knows the pains of my heart. And sometimes I can't see..

Repentance and Growth

I am spending the week with this sermon.  I have lots to think about, pray about and talk to my husband about... and I have some repenting to do... and some growing to do.  I am excited to see what God has for our marriage.  Good stuff, I know!
http://marshill.com/media/real-marriage/the-respectful-wife

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